I've checked on the kids a few times and took a shower put my bed clothes on and laid down on the couch .. Matt has cleaned his kitchen ..hmm. he walks over to me. He says I'm off work the next two days. What do u wanna do. We can go do anything u wanna do. .. I pull him on top of me. . I say please Matt. .. he looks away . He says I want to melanie. But I know it will kill me when u go back to him .. I'm not. He says u will .. no I won't matt... I turn away. He says why .. because he raped me .. I whisper. Matt looks like I just told him I shot him ... he sits up..what are u talking about melanie. . I explain to Matt all of it. .. I ask Matt. Do u think it's rape... Matt says melanie I'm lost on this one .. I'm not sure how I see it. But it's only important how u feel .. I say. I feel he raped me ! Matt says ok ... I lay down. Matt says baby doll can I lay here and hold u .. yes. Please do. ..
We wake up the next morning to Ethan saying daddy ..Matt looks up and says yeah son. Ethan says I want some breakfast... I look at Matt then I tell Ethan. Hey guess what I'm a breakfast expert ... Ethan says prove it. We laugh hard. Matt gives me the eyes like get in the kitchen chef .... lol. I make them a huge breakfast and Ethan approves !!! He's says daddy u can't cook any more .. I laugh. Matt says yeah we need a woman bare foot in the kitchen don't we son ? Ethan says yep . As he's cleaning his plate. Kenna says mommy I need apple juice. Matt says we will go grocery shopping today and get u some apple juice. As he lifts Kenna in the air. Kenna is laughing so hard .. Matt kisses her head twice. I see his muscles in his arm and blow air out like O .... he says no no while shaking his head no .. I put out my sad lip .. he says don't... as he sets my child on the floor. He walks past me. He says u gonna get it. I say really. Like really excited .. he smiles and shakes his head ... like 20 mins later while I'm cleaning the kitchen up nell shows up at the door. She has her son with her she says Darren misses Ethan. He wants to play. Matt looks at Ethan and ask u wanna go play at Darren's today. Ethan says I can't leave Kenna. Awwwwww. Matt says that's my man. He's so proud. .. I am too. Nell says Kenna can come play too.. Matt looks at me with his please face on. I smile ok. .. nell takes the kids down to the park. .. when Matt shut the door he walks over to me and says come with me please. I take his hand and walk in his room. He shuts the door. The room is small but very nice. Clean and organized. A queen size bed. With black comforter and gray sheets. He pulls me on top of him on that bed. He says we don't have to go there. I just want to hold u and kiss ?? I say I want to go there .
Matt rolls me over and takes my clothes off. He stands and takes his off. We get up in his bed and he's taking his time. Being so sweet. He says are u sure u want this to happen. I'll wait if u want to. I say I don't wanna wait. I want u now. Two hours later we are standing in the shower together. He says u ok sweetie. I say yes . He hug me and says why does that always feel so right .. I smile at him.
While we are at the grocery store Matt says what does Kenna like. I say apple juice .. Oh yeah he says and gets apple juice. We have stocked up on food and house stuff. Then we leave and go to the farmers market . I buy so many fruits and veggies. We get back home with so much food !! I can cook . Happy face!!! Matt says ur the only woman I've ever met that loves to grocery shopping and cook. He laughs. I say well u wanna eat .. he shakes his head yes ... I say then shhhh and let me cook. He puts his hands up and says by all means... Ethan says daddy can we play catch at the park. Matt says yep. Go get ur stuff. Ethan runs off. Kenna says mommy can I help u cook. I say yes ma'am.. Matt walks over to me and kisses my cheek. And kisses Kenna cheek. She laughs. He winks at me and says I wanna see food on that table when I get back woman. My phone is ringing Kenna answers it and says hi daddy bug. She is talking and then hands me the phone .. hello. Jay says where are u ? I say hi Jay. He says it's been 6 days. I wanna see my daughter melanie. Now. Jay we will be home on the 17th.. he says WHAT melanie that's another week away. I know. But I can't get another good flight till then. ..flight. where are u he ask in a death cold voice .. Jay I'll be back on the 17th.. please don't be like that. DID U TAKE MY DAUGHTER TO ITALY ? Jay she happy and healthy . ANSWER ME MELANIE. I'LL FLY OUT TONIGHT !!! Yes Jay we are in Italy. Hello. Hello. Melanie u fucked up. Jay don't. We were not gonna make this marriage work out. And u were with her again. .. Jay says. Yes I was I fucked her in every way for the whole marriage. And I'm gonna do it again every chance I get. .. I say good. But hey. Jay. I gotta go Matt's dinner is almost ready and I have to pour wine. He will be home soon. Got to go !! Click.... OK I'm seriously worried he might flip his script.. I call Rick. Dammit Rick. He's a super dick and yet u never let me off the hook do u. Wow. You have no idea .. none. Tell then. Make me see it so I can help. Get him some help. He raped me !!! Click
