The bench bounced off the bed and broke in half. I'm impressed... I like crazy. I can do this !! I snatched what's left of the vanity and throw it as hard as I can the glass that was left attached to it shattered in tiny shards all over my room. Rick is grabs me , Melanie hey stop stop stop. He's got me holding me the same way Jay had me . Rick looks around the room .WHAT IS GOING ON IN HERE ? Jason ? Rick ask .. Jay says I tried to stop her . I held her down for a long time when she started this. But when I let go she went straight back to fucking it all up. Rick say what happen ? threw his teeth . I say JASON wants to be my fucking friend !!! Rick starts laughing. Like really laughing .. I've never ever heard Rick laugh like this he's laughing hard like hyena howling .. Jay laughs too. I say and I thought I was the insane one here .. Rick says Melanie ur not insane. Ur in love and believe me it makes u act insane .. Jay says I believe it . I give him eyes that would have killed him a 1000 deaths if looks could kill . Rick says do not start up again when I let u go .. he let's go of me and I stand still ... till I turn around I walk out my room . I'm done I have nothing left to break. But my own fucking heart !!! I pick up my cigs off the counter and walk outside .. I sit down on the steps and light up . I can still feel my adrenaline. . I don't know what to do with my self .. I'm literally ticking. Jay walks out and stands in front of me , he says on I'll never ever ask u to be my friend. I look up at him , I must have the most evil look in my eye , I say you have turn me into her . This message to him was pure malice. I've never hated him .I've never wanted him to get away from me so bad .. he drops to his knees on the step right in front of me . He says ur not her ! Look at me Melanie , I look up at him I feel the hate in my soul .. I've never hated like this .. I feel my self going to this dark place I wanted to hurt him. Like I really wanted to hurt him . Why ,how ,I love him , but in this moment inflicting pain on him is foremost . I actually in vision myself kicking him off that step . He says Melanie. Please look at me. I AM . He says no ur not ur some where else .. I think this snapped me back .. how did he know .. I didn't even see him and we are face to face 3 inches a part . I look down. Jason please go u had plans tonight tell her I said hi . I say in my I'm back to my sarcastic self way .. Rick opens through door and says come help me grab some towels. Melanie bed is pouring water .. Rick grabs the water hose.. I run back to my room and see water flooding the hall . Oh shit!!! My room is a tornado .. I know this seen I'm from Texas . I seen this mass destruction before .. Rick sticks the hose in the bed and Jay says I got it he runs out side to sick the hose to start the back flow of water .. I see Jay out the window sucking on the hose .. I laugh so hard. .. this is funny. Wow I laugh so hard . When Jay comes in the house he says shut up . He's laughing .. tho.. Rick has all the towels cleaning up the floor . I go get the mop and start on the hall . Rick says I need the broom to Jay .. Jay goes to the laundry room and grabs the broom .. two hours later we have the water under control and most of the water and glass up . I sit down at the table and lay my head on the table . I'm tired and so sad .. he dont want me .. Jay walks up to me he says you don't have a room . Or a bed . Grab some clothes and come with me .. I look up at him like he's lost . Or I'm lost who knows anymore .. he says baby please go pack a bag . I just stand walk pack .. I'm in Jays car , I look over at him and ask .. where are u taking me ? He says the hospital. He don't smile. I look down , good I need one .. I look out the window
