Well because I quit ... Jay looks at me like I just did a back flip .. why? He ask .. because I want to work things out .. I say he looks down . He looks like he don't know what to say .. I talk to Jeff today and I'm working there from 8am. Till 3 pm Monday threw Friday. From now. I need to have a set schedule. And I need to have time off. No more exhausted life .. he looks up at me .. he says that's great Melanie. Really great ! I'm proud of you . I am... he hasn't touched his food . He drank the glass of tea and well fondled the glass. .. I'm looking at him waiting on his next move. The ball is in ur court Jay .... I'm thinking but haven't said anymore. . He looks up at me. ..he says I hope u find some time to relax chill out for a while. U need that .. you've been busy for the past two yrs. If you need anything please call me .. I want us to be good friends. . Why didn't he just stab me with his knife ... I've been friend zoned by the love of my life .. I have to stand .. I have to move. , I need to throw something. I'm mad . Furious! I stand pick up my plate and fling that bitch with all I have to the wall.. I pick up the glass and throw it like I was pitching for the .. hell I don't know some baseball team. I hate sports ! Jay hasn't moved .. I walk to the counter and knock the glass pan I cooked this dinner in , in to the sink hard enough it shattered. I walk to my room I grab the glass vanity and sling it across the room . It's light . But all my make up just shattered all over my bedroom. Stuff went every where , the sec I released the vanity into the air Jay grab me around my arms and held me so I could not move a muscle .. I can't damage any thing else so I begin screaming! ! LET GO OF ME NOW .. I'm moving slightly and wiggle .. but he's a big mf. And his arms are big. Ain't able to do much . He says calm down please baby .. he's in my ear . I feel like I could take on godzilla right now. . Adrenaline is on a million. LET ME GO NOW JASON. He's in my ear still. Stop ! NO!! He says I'll let you go when u calm down. Your gonna hurt ur self .. NO I WANNA HURT YOU ! I scream .. he says you have. He's way too calm . I wanna fight. . I wanna fuck some shit up!!! I jump again and he tighten his grip around me . I swear I feel like I'm in a straight jacket and not a pretty pink one with sequence! !! I feel like I should be in a fucking hospital wearing a straight jacket singing Adele songs while tears pour down my face . But I think I need to scream first. . I need angry chick Rock first. Hell let me act like the by polar insane Crack up that I'm feeling right now .. I know he will not let me go as long as I'm still fighting . I have to calm down .I'm have to convince him I will not act rash .. I'm OK. .yep I'm good. I got this. He's gonna regret this shit when he let's me go imma punch his ass dead in the mouth !! Watch ... but for now I have to relax. He says in my ear .. tell me what has u this mad .. oh I don't know Jason , u just friend zoned me after just fucking me !!! He puts his head against the side of my head . He says I love you. You will never be just a friend. .. but right now we need this time away from each other. .he says THEN GO ! You need to fuck me and everyone else huh ? I say as mean as I could. . .. no . He says . We stand there for like 10 mins. I say I'm good you can let go . He says I can feel the blood coursing threw ur body ur not OK ... I give my very best performance here Oscar worthy . Jay I'm fine please let me go ur hurting my arms. He immediately let's go .. I walk out a little bit and turn to him. I say ur stupid ... I walk over to the wall where I have three very large pictures in glass frames . I knock them all off the wall in one swoosh. He leans for me and I jump right out the way ... booya bitch! !! Didn't catch my ass this time . I grab the mangled vanity and sling that mf so hard it stuck in the wall. Jay is standing there watching me .. like wow .. I kick the dresser over . I'm losing momentum here.. I think I'm tired ..dam it takes strength to destroy all I have !! Which was all bought by me . I'm tearing up my shit. I've found my strength again I kick the vanity bench
