WhiteGXRoblox's Slice of Journal

4th September 2023

I'm super dead beat.

Sleep at 4am, It is never expected to wake up at 8:30 no matter how consistent or loud is your alarm. This is the time I am supposed to be going out prepared. Since we have no time for breakfast or bath, I straight up only brushing my teeth and get the heck out with my housemates ready.

God, My teammates have proposed full edit off my team report but they should because I can't handle writing the bibliography. I was a bit late to call Taxi and forgot I spoofed my GPS location and have to manually locate myself, Since I promised to cover the ride fee for this ride towards my housemates. Today It's gonna be more expensive for taxi demands compared how it's usual is. Arrived at college and still dead beat to have to prepare my presentation speech for our Digital Calendar very soon. God, I am not in my best mood

I come to realize that my contribution to the assignment is not enough and there's more conflicts between me for planning and works. I don't know, At some point I should just join someone else's group. They have to make big changes to my documents, making me feel like my efforts will never be used. Or maybe the outcome will be the same even without me. I never want to act as a leader in team but as actual support. Perhaps I am just not good at executing's idea and conversation. I should just die. They should just take over all the roles and leave me behind to do nothing at this point, Okay Maybe I am way too emotional and dramatic on this. Only putting shame to myself. This is why I feel like working alone feel more manageable.

After recalling the words my parents told me that, Do not give up or let go just because 1 failed attempt. You can always persue or keep up to do stuff, Maybe they really need my help later. Forget it, It just one big assignment why do I bother something that is already inevitable......