Silently Screaming For Help

|Chapter 89 : Still Avoiding|

"Amelia! There you are, I've been looking for you everywhere!" Turning around we looked at Cedric who was walking down the corridor towards us quickly while I slightly threw my hands up, trying but failing to smile

"What a coincidence, Cedric! I've been avoiding you everywhere!"

"Can- can we talk?"

"I'll see you later Lia" Blaise mumbled as he nodded to me slightly before turning and walking away as I turned my head and watched him until he rounded the corner and I turned back, finding Cedric only a couple of feet in front of me

"I- I don't- I-"

"Why?"

"Because you're disappointed and upset"

"Only slightly, Lia. Come on"

"But- I don't want to see you upset" I told him quietly as he let out a quiet sigh and looked at me, a genuinely disappointed look on his face  as he held his arms up

"I'm not upset Amelia. Do you want a hug?" He asked quietly as I looked at him, pausing for awhile before nodding as I went over while getting pulled into a hug as I pressed my head against him with a mumble

"You are upset"

"Slightly-"

"I'm sorry I did-"

"I wanted you to tell me these things"

"I know but I-"

"I also said to you that I didn't want you dating anybody either-"

"Bloody hell, Cedric! You can't control me or my life! God forgive me that I wanted to keep something to myself for once!" I told him loudly as I went to push myself away angrily as I was brought back towards him and he rested his head on top of mine with a quiet hum

"Calm down"

"But I can't! I want out!"

"Of the hug?" He asked quietly after a couple of moments as he went to step back and I shook my head as I gripped at his back tightly

"Of what? The relationship?"

"I keep trying but there's something holding me back and I don't want him to attac- get hurt. I don't want him getting hurt. I'm just not happy-"

"Amelia, if you aren't happy then you aren't happy. Don't force yourself to go along because it's just going to make you feel worse. You'll just have to end it"

"It's not that's easy"

"But it will be, all you'll have to say is 'I-"

"You're telling me what to do as if you understand!"

"Amelia, please calm down-"

"But you're-!"

"I'll stop, I'll stop. Just, please calm down" he mumbled quietly as I hit my head against him with a mumble as he rubbed at my back and I started shaking my head, poking his back forcefully as I continued muttering to myself

"What're you saying?"

"Nothing important-"

"Amelia, please-"

"Stop pestering me! Let go!" I said to him loudly as I tried to push myself away as he wrapped his arms around me again and pulled me back towards him as I tried to shift his arms from around me

"Amelia, calm down-"

"No!"

"Amelia!" Falling still and staying quiet I stopped completely as he let out a sigh and I stared at the floor silently

"Where in the name of Merlin has this all came from?"

"Nowhere"

"You've got so much built up anger and rage inside of you"

"I know"

"Where has it all came from?-"

"I want to see Nathan"

"Nathan?"

"I need a hug from Nathan"

"What about me?" He asked quietly after a pause as I shook my head and he stayed still before stepping back, keeping his arm around my shoulders as we started walking through the corridors silently, finding Nathan walking down the corridor towards us not long later as he looked at us confused while Cedric stopped and looked at me out of the corner of his eye

"I'm going to go and find Cho. I might see you later Amelia" he told me quietly before turning around and walking away as I looked back to Nathan and went towards him quickly, pulling him into a tight hug with a mumble as he looked at me

"Is everything alright?"

"I just need a hug"

"Well I can help with that" he told me before wrapping his arms around me tightly as a small smile grew on my face

"So what's happened?"

"I've fucked up. Big time"

"How?"

"I've made Cedric upset"

"Intentionally?"

"Of course not. It's just.... I've said the wrong things in the wrong way"

"He'll know you didn't mean it. He'll understand and you'll both be back to normal before you know it"

"I hope so"