Silently Screaming For Help

|Chapter 178 : Loving Conversations|

"You should get back in touch with Draco though, he's sent another owl, he's realised you aren't in the hospital wing anymore. He's worried about you Lia" closing the book I had open on my lap I turned my head to Nathan as he stood at the living room door, a letter in his hands as I gave him a look

I know he is

"And he cares a shit load too by the looks of it" he told me as I nodded, a small smile growing as he came over and poked me making me turn, looking at the grin on his face confused before he sat down next to me

"On that note.... I'd heard you two had a good time at the Yule Ball"

Don't you start

"Oh my God! Has our Lia got a crush? Is it more than a crush?"

Piss off Dalmer

"He's head over heels for you if you didn't know. I feel like he's trying not to let onto it too much but my god it's blatantly obvious Lia, I mean, even the way he writes about you in his letters!"

Nathan

"But you two would be so cute together"

It's not a good idea though

"How not? Lia, if you both like each other then try it and see where it goes! You'll never know at the end of the day" he urged me quietly, kicking off his shoes and sitting cross legged as he looked at me and I gave him a sad look

I know, but for as selfish as it sounds I don't want to get hurt... and I'm scared I'll hurt him with how I'll be when I'm finally out of the hospital wing

"I think he's scared he's going to lose you to this- I think he's already scared he has since you haven't been replying" he explained to me quietly after having been sitting silent for a moment as he sat with the letter and read through it again before offering it out to me as I took it carefully, reading over it as my heart clenched slightly and I felt my guilt grow

"What if he did ask you out?"

What do you mean?

"Well, what would you do? What would your reaction be?"

I'm not really sure

"Well you clearly like him and he clearly likes you. Is there anything that would stop you wanting to be with him?"

I wouldn't want him to feel like he was being weighed down by me

"How do you mean?"

Well I'm not exactly in a good place mentally at the moment and I don't want that to be affecting him if we were to date. I don't want him to feel like he'd be trapped and constantly having to reassure me

"I don't think he'd feel like he would be forced to be like that. He'd want to. He'd put you before himself, Lia.... He already does. Would you ever give it a chance?"

I'd love to. But it's something I'd have to think over properly and talk to him about so he can understand. For as much love as I have for the boy I don't want to hurt him or lose him. I also don't want to get either his or my own hopes up

Watching his face he sat quiet before nodding in understanding while I passed the letter back, giving him a small smile as he waved it off, apologising for asking so many questions while I turned my head to him amused

Anyway, what about your love life, Dimples?

"Oh it's as hectic as ever"

Oh?

"I was seeing and talking to a girl for a few months and then we were dating for a while. It turns out she was still sleeping with the guy she was hooking up with before she met me"

Oh shit I'm sorry Nathan. You didn't deserve that

"I know but it's all good. I broke it off with her and then slept with her sister and her best friend"

Nathan!

"What? Don't hate the player, hate the game"