Razorblade Romance (Ville Valo Fanfic)

122. The Tender Touch of Pain

"Are you comfortable? Is it hurting you?" Ville asked, touching my pulses. The handcuffs had a plush fabric, so it wasn't. "No, I'm quite comfortable with it."

"Quite comfortable." Ville raised a brow. "Let me know if you feel anything that is not pleasure." He whispered in my ear and I felt my legs already trembling. Oh, my. The night was promising.

We didn't have quality time for us for a very long time. Since Charlie was born, we were always worried if she would wake up, if we were making too much noise, or anything like that. Not to mention the period we were away from each other. There was always something holding us down a bit, and maybe that's why Ville was so excited about it. His hands were on my neck, he was holding me a bit bossy, I could feel that, even though he was just looking at me. "You're so beautiful. I can't stop looking at you and marvel about how wonderful my wife is."

I smiled at him. "I can say the same. My hubby is simply amazing." He giggled, kissing me lightly, but looking into my eyes. That look made me sigh. "Breath, kulta. We're just getting started."

"It's not fair you're fully clothed."

"I said we are going slow."

"Hum, I see you will be the boss."

"Of course, you're the one who's wearing cuffs. I will do whatever pleases me, what do you think of that?" His lips were running down my neck, the fact that I couldn't use my hands was really making me more excited about it. "I think I'm fond of the idea."

His tongue ran on my lips, but he retreated when I tried to kiss him. "No hush, darling." Damn. I was an anxious person, and so was he, I knew he must be concentrating to engage in this slow thing. He chuckled of my eagerness, I was getting a bit nervous where these things would lead us. Well, I had an idea. He kissed me, holding my face, very slowly and it was making me mad. He was enjoying it, and leaving me out of breath. I could see he was different, like he was training his breathing or something like that. Usually he had to stop a bit to recover, as his asthma would get in the way, but he made strategic pauses to recover his air.

"I love to kiss you, you have no idea. I worship your lips. Sometimes I feel I don't enjoy it so much, because our kisses lead us to other things very quickly."

"You're right, but when you kiss me like that, I cannot stop thinking about these other things." He chuckled when I said it. "Let's enjoy it. Today we have time."

And so we kissed. He caressed my tongue so slowly with his, I let out a moan and he smiled. I was melting away, I really felt weak on the knees and I had no way to hold myself. His hands pressed hard on my waist, he was playing with my underwear. "Someone is losing balance." He looked into my eyes, I was at his mercy and I wasn't afraid to show it. That gave him some satisfaction, I could see it in his eyes. It was a bit annoying to not being able to touch him, though. I even felt a bit of a tension on my shoulders, I couldn't fully relax. He felt it, when his hands ran to my neck. "Relax, kulta. What is it?"

"It's just... I want to touch you so badly. Mess up your hair while I kiss you." Ville smiled at me, in a lovely way. He looked up, thinking about it. "I am almost releasing you, because I love when you ran your fingers on my hair, but I won't. I cannot control myself if these fingers" - he held my hands - "start to work on my hair, or on my body. I just can't. And I have to say you look so lovely, helpless." That's how I really felt, a bit fragile even. But I liked Ville's dominant side.

He pushed me gently in bed, I was a bit discomforted and he positioned me better. I watched him removing his clothes, he didn't take his eyes off me. His underwear stayed on, disappointing me. "I'll release you a bit, but just to lock you again in a better way. But no touching." He killed me every time he used that tone, he even pointed a finger at me. He unlocked me, checking if my pulses were alright and he kissed my hand. I cheated, pulling him to a kiss, grabbing his hair. He didn't resist at first, but then he pulled back. "Nah nah nah, you cannot do this, lady."