BULLIED

Submission 738

"Get away from me you freak!"

"You are so stupid!"

"Ugly!"

Have you ever heard those words? A lot of you have. Bullying is not something to take lightly. For those who are reading this, please listen to the whole story, there will be a lot.

My bullying has happened since I was 6. All of my friends think I have it easy.

"You get straight A's, you have a loving family, you're so pretty." That is what they say. But have they ever seen behind the scenes? No.

I am poor. My family lives in one of the worst neighborhood's in the state. My neighbor raped his own daughter, and we have no money to move. My roof leaks in our bedroom. Every day we have to put a bucket down so water doesn't rot our house.

Yes, I get straight A's but, it's not easy. I have to stay up until midnight studying before the test. If I don't finish my homework I have a panic attack because I am afraid of people knowing what happens. Panic attacks are not fun. I can't breathe and I am crying, sobbing my eyes out. And thats not even the worst.

I am abused. Not by my parents, but my little sister. She hits me, punches me, slaps me, kicks me, shoves me, and more. It's not just physical abuse she does. It is also verbal.

When I tell my parents that she hit me they tell me to get over it, well my dad does. My mom is hardly home. Always working trying to support our family of five.

Depression has come to me and suicide is a friend I greet welcoming. Cutting is not something I have done nor any self harm. I will not tell you bullying gets any better if you are here for that. It might get better, I have no clue. All I know is it hasn't for me.

I have been bullied since 1st grade. They have messed up my mental stage. It is because of them every second of every day I want to die.

I may look heathy, yes. But do I feel healthy? Never.

There has never been a moment in my life since I was 7 that I have felt safe and protected.

The only place I can escape this is books and music. And as I am writing this I am crying. I have it easy though compared to my cousin.

Her dad has died, her mom has a likely fatal disease, and she has experienced much of that I have.

Boys and girls of todays society are cruel. In chapter 724 it says everyone has a breaking point. I have reached mine. Many of you are probably thinking how old are you now?

I am 11. Yes you read that right, 11. How old did you think I was? I know more things than my older sister, society wise. She has never really experienced anything that I have. When I try to tell her she has it easy she says I am oblivious to the world.

I can still smile, I can still laugh. But my erge to live has come and gone.

Call me whatever you like. I can't take it. Push me around and abuse me. I can go home and die. Call me hurtful things, you won't be sad to see me go.

I will never be the same as I have been before. For years I have felt that no one would ever love me, and I still do. I no longer can take the pain that comes with living, but I do live on.

I will make it out of school, healthy. I will grow up to have children that I will treat fairly unlike my parents have done to me.

Do you think this story is over? It's not. I would like to share my opinion of society nowadays. And if this changes the mind of anybody, maybe, just maybe I might be proud of something I have done.