BULLIED

Submission 1007

Hi everybody, so I've been reading some of theses stories for a while and as much as I'm glad that some of the stories have happy endings, sadly there are still stories that do not end well but I wanted to share my story to prove to those of you who believe that it's not possible that your life can get better, that it actually can. My story began in 9th grade when I had to move away with my family and thus I had to go to another school and on my first school day I was terrified because I knew no one and because I started gaining weight at the time when I entered the school I was late and I ran to my first class and when I arrived my heart was beating fast and everybody was staring at me, Judgmental stares, but at the time I wasn't sure until later when the bullying started people kept mocking my sharp voice, telling me I'm fat and using me as an entertaining joke I remember once a guy came pretending to talked to me so that someone else came from behind to cut a part of my hair using a pair of scissors and once a girl came to me and was like nice blusher you're wearing and I told her it's not blusher it's my natural skin so she told me are you sure then she licked her hand and used it to wipe my face to see if I was telling the truth and so many other humiliating situation, also there was his boy that I liked and he liked me back but he didn't wanna be with me because I was a loser and he didn't want me to ruin his reputation, but what really affected me the most was the jokes about me being fat that made me lose all my confident and I felt so fat, ugly and worthless. At that time I got really depressed and I didn't wanna talk at all and everybody started saying I'm antisocial making me more depressed. At that time I was dying to lose weight without thinking of my health because the healthy diet needed time so I tried starving myself but I ended up eating more after a while, I tried using pills so my body wouldn't absorb fats but it did not end well at all and it was really unhealthy and then after a while of unsuccessful trials I started suffering from bulimia I didn't understand at the time to be honest I just knew that I needed to through up after eating anything, I understood later when I heard Demi Lovato was suffering from bulimia too. I had no one to talk to I had no friends and I didn't wanna tell my family or my old friends because I didn't wanna seem weak so I decided to turn to God he was there for me when nobody else was I could talk to him and tell him everything that I couldn't tell anybody else and it made me feel better and eventually I stopped throwing up and I realized I shouldn't care about what people say and that made me gain some of my confidence back. I had one hell of a year but it changed me to a better person I became much stronger, more mature, more confident and I became the person I've always wanted to be. The year after that I had to move again and at that new school people weren't any better, I mean there are bullies everywhere, but I was better and I met a lot of nice people though and I made some amazing friends we had 3 amazing years together my life turned so much better and now I'm in my first year in university I'm still fat, but I do love myself a lot, I think I'm beautiful and I love my body with all of its curves and I don't care about what people think of me but most importantly I'm proud of myself. I know if someone told me how my life would turn when I was suffering in 9th grade, I wouldn't have believed but now I just wanna tell any of you reading this who are still suffering that there is light at the end of the tunnel just love yourself and stop caring about what people say and your life will be much better.