BULLIED

Submission 896

I have no idea how to start this. Well I was bullied from the age of 10 when I started to gain weight and got fatter. I don't know how, but I turned from the most popular girl to the biggest LOSER in school. Kids would talk smack about you, but the girls where the worst. They will give you perfect eye contact and will whisper loud smack about you, when you are like RIGHT THERE.

I was called a "loser" "fatty" "freak" and much more. Then I choose to go Emo. I usted to look at my tummy and cry wishing I was dead. I also got badly tormented.

Then I changed schools and it was great, untill some BOY ruined it for me. I'm calling him BOY1. So BOY1 changed the school. From being nice and welcomeing, to horrible.

He, said stuff like how I was a "stupid goth" and "wacko Emo" behind my back and to my face. I was ruined and my friends where pretty sad to be unpopular to. (Since he made clicks a "thing now")

Then, at home was worse. My parents where forever limiting my happiness. They where Stricked,over protective,mean and rude. Yep I want to kill myself right now. And I still do, because of my dads verbal abuse.

And my sister is always on my ass about everything, and still is. So school is shit to so there was no where I could ever call my "home"

Once, my horrible battle through sixth grade ended. I started 7th. (Yay) sarcasum I was dreading liveing another year. With your dad calling you a bitch and saying you have no hope in life.

So, a new girl arrived at the start of the second term. I'm calling her GIRL1. I started losing waight but very slowly.

So, GIRL1 was saying I was never going to lose weight and be alone forever, she even tryed to steal my friends. She always hated emos.

It was funny, because no one really liked GIRL1. And people loved BOY1 for some reason. In fact, BOY1 thought it would be fun to Ambush one of my friends.

She made a mastake by saying,Sea world insted of the correct answer to the question. Shure enough she was humiliated. So she was late for class. And BOY1 wanted all the kids to scream "SEA WORLD" as my Best friend entered the room.

So, me and my other friend left the room to tell her, when we came back they all yelled "PARTY POOPER" and called us pigs and stuff. My friends and I where super humiliated.

I started developing depression. I was never happy. And my laugh was fake. And people would alsk why it was so wired and of course I didn't answer.

It killed me how there was no place to call my home.

I, would rarely self harm, I was to scared about what would happen if they found out.

I have so much body issues and I am always, sad. Unfortunately the issues are in places I don't want to talk about. But, I pretended to be a happy,sexy and perfect girl online. I got haters, but I came back at them with sassy insults. I am starting to turn suisideal. Death is the only thing on my mind. I feel like everyone around me is dying and yet I'm stuck liveing

I am sitting on the couch right now thinking about suiside while writing about this.

I can't cry anymore, I wish to fall into a sleep and never awake. I just have felt like I have had enough of life. I want to die.

I have no idea how long my shitty life will last. I need to go stare at the walls now.